Tired

"Come to me, all you who are weary..."
Matthew 11:28

Lord, I am sooooo weary.
I set myself up for it, but I cannot stand to be bored. Busy-ness keeps my mind working and keeps it from rolling off the deep end of over-thinking.
(Psycho-analyze that all you want. I have just learned to stay occupied.)
I go for two-three month stretches before I start to get tired, and start procrastinating. I know it's burnout mostly, but I look at things that need done and think to myself, "if no one will do it, I can do it." I have come to realize though, that is not necessarily sleepy tired, it's the "in-your-bones" tired. 

When I'm out with my little guy, four years old, and he starts getting tired walking around he asks me to carry him. So I pick up my baby. He lays his head on my shoulder and loosely hangs his arms around my neck (it's that not-enough-energy-to-hold-tight hug). I wrap my arms around him, and it's the most comforting feeling in the world, to know my Bubby needs me to just hold him.

That's what Jesus asks of us. "Come to me, all you who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest."

What kind of rest are we looking for in today's world? To be able to sleep in? We think that's what it is, and for a large part of people it is that they are not getting actual sleep. Mainly, it's that we are not resting in the Lord.
He wants our burdens and worries, and for us to rest. The past week I have realized that my alone time with God is my rest. I feel more recharged after having quiet time with God. I'm not even reading my Bible in my quiet time. All I am doing is taking 15 minutes in my car (work lunch), turn some Christian music down real low so I can barely understand it, and just imagine God sitting with me. (It may sound super silly to you, but try it!) Imagine what relaxed you and comforted you when you were little... mom rubbing your hair, dad patting your back, or even grandma holding your hand.  Imagine God in those positions, He's trying to soothe you- let Him. It's like meditation and praying all rolled into one. You need to clear your mind and just focus on God comforting you. 15 minutes were the problems and loudness of the world slip away.

We need more than physical rest. Jesus calls us to take mental rest as well.